While I'm waiting...Here's a little message!
"Don't apologize for it...Instead embrace it..."
-Pastor Burrell-
Dear future husband there is a few things you need to know...
Dear future husband,
There is a few things that you might never understand about dystonia and that's ok. For example you may never understand what it feels like on a daily basics. Know it is a struggle. A struggle to know and understand that this isn't my fault. I didn't eat something wrong or do anything incorrect to allow dystonia. Know that when I am quit I am not trying to "shut you out", I just don't know how to talk about it in a way that you will understand. Talking about it means admitting that I have it every single time. That's a tough cookie to swallow.
Know that relationships are hard for me. I'm not sure always why. I wish I could tell you because I would first tell myself. Pushing people away seems to be the easiest. For then I don't have to talk about any of the extra hard things that go on in my brain due to having dystonia. Trust me, Dystonia is the hardest thing in my life to talk about. I have to force myself because if I don't I never will.
Patience is the key to living life with dystonia. See you can't go into this thinking it's first going to disappear. That's not how it works. Your mind set needs to be "Life is hard. This is going to be hard but never impossible. Together we CAN get through this." Don't except going into this and it being easy. It will disappoint. Be patient because this is a big key to my heart.
There will be days where you want to pull your hair out, scream, and just give up but don't. Don't give up because this only means you let dystonia win. You let it beat you. If your with me then your stronger then that. I know strong when I see strong. I've had to be strong my entire life so trust me when I say that in my eyes you will become stronger then any man I have ever met.
Through the good. Through the bad. You CAN find joy and happiness. Through the stress. Through the anger. And even through the hurt there IS still a life full of happiness to be lived. You will meet amazing people through your journey of joining me in this fight. Please don't join me until you are willing to do the very best you can. Your best is always good enough for me. I'm a simple girl, really and just want you to love me. Dystonia or no dystonia everyone wants to be loved. Love me for me. Love me with dystonia everyday of our life's.
One day I hope that you will be as blessed through dystonia as I am today. Though it is a life that is hard work. It is a life that I would never trade. A life full of amazing new friendships being built each and every day. My advice to you is to be yourself. I like you for you. No need to take me out on a fancy date. A walk is simple and just fine by me.
My last advice to you is this. Live for the moment. Love like it is our last day on earth. Be thankful for what you can do and know that one day we will be made perfect in Heaven. That while on this earth your job is to love me no matter what happens or how hard life may get.
Until the day comes that I can read this to you...I'll wait. I'll wait on the Lord.
-Pastor Burrell-
Dear future husband there is a few things you need to know...
Dear future husband,
There is a few things that you might never understand about dystonia and that's ok. For example you may never understand what it feels like on a daily basics. Know it is a struggle. A struggle to know and understand that this isn't my fault. I didn't eat something wrong or do anything incorrect to allow dystonia. Know that when I am quit I am not trying to "shut you out", I just don't know how to talk about it in a way that you will understand. Talking about it means admitting that I have it every single time. That's a tough cookie to swallow.
Know that relationships are hard for me. I'm not sure always why. I wish I could tell you because I would first tell myself. Pushing people away seems to be the easiest. For then I don't have to talk about any of the extra hard things that go on in my brain due to having dystonia. Trust me, Dystonia is the hardest thing in my life to talk about. I have to force myself because if I don't I never will.
Patience is the key to living life with dystonia. See you can't go into this thinking it's first going to disappear. That's not how it works. Your mind set needs to be "Life is hard. This is going to be hard but never impossible. Together we CAN get through this." Don't except going into this and it being easy. It will disappoint. Be patient because this is a big key to my heart.
There will be days where you want to pull your hair out, scream, and just give up but don't. Don't give up because this only means you let dystonia win. You let it beat you. If your with me then your stronger then that. I know strong when I see strong. I've had to be strong my entire life so trust me when I say that in my eyes you will become stronger then any man I have ever met.
Through the good. Through the bad. You CAN find joy and happiness. Through the stress. Through the anger. And even through the hurt there IS still a life full of happiness to be lived. You will meet amazing people through your journey of joining me in this fight. Please don't join me until you are willing to do the very best you can. Your best is always good enough for me. I'm a simple girl, really and just want you to love me. Dystonia or no dystonia everyone wants to be loved. Love me for me. Love me with dystonia everyday of our life's.
One day I hope that you will be as blessed through dystonia as I am today. Though it is a life that is hard work. It is a life that I would never trade. A life full of amazing new friendships being built each and every day. My advice to you is to be yourself. I like you for you. No need to take me out on a fancy date. A walk is simple and just fine by me.
My last advice to you is this. Live for the moment. Love like it is our last day on earth. Be thankful for what you can do and know that one day we will be made perfect in Heaven. That while on this earth your job is to love me no matter what happens or how hard life may get.
Until the day comes that I can read this to you...I'll wait. I'll wait on the Lord.
Sincerely,
Your future wife that is waiting on you,
Chelsi
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